Fools, Friends, and the Great Beyond
Tom Jolu
Tour Journal: Text Message Break Up

Tour Journal: Text Message Break Up

My girlfriend broke up with me yesterday (via text). I can’t really say I’m surprised. I wish I could say I felt anything negative. Maybe that would’ve made any of this worth it.
  I know there wasn’t much of anything there on either side, really. I guess I wanted to give it time and see if I could feel anything. Don’t get me wrong, there were the initial feelings, the butterflies, the smiles, the late night conversations, but that faded. We were just lonely—or at least i know i was. 
I was missing love. I was missing the feeling of when you trudge through a long, tedious day and something small, like a toy dog catches your eye because those are her favorite breed of dog. 
I hoped so deep down that something would happen—for that like to turn to love, for that silly infatuation to deepen, to feel something as real as my hand upon her skin.
But nothing happened.